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Maybe I'm mental
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Embarrassingly, I haven't read the book. I just ordered it. This jacket design is impossible to credit. It might be a student project? In any case, if you don't know the film One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest with Jack Nicholson, you need to put this newsletter down, call in sick and get to watching it.
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If I level with you, I'd tell you that I'm often anxious about things I write in this newsletter. It's a bit raw and honest. It most certainly paints a hyperrealistic caricature of my real self(ves?). The messy, often broken, sometimes trite scatterbrain of a human. Sometimes I write things that should probably be kept private. I feel the weight of social conditioning telling me to STFU. I become fearful of being forced into a 1950s psychiatric hospital.
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But then I think about two types of subscribers. The ones who actually read this and the ones who auto-filter this newsletter into the digital trash can. Those of you who write me and tell me things seem to be saying "I like Freshly Brewed Thoughts in all its formless clap trappery, don't be afraid." Those who auto-filter it away...that's just a kindness, isn't it? I don't do that, to be honest, either I read or I unsubscribe. However, sometimes I read half-heartedly. Anyway, I love you all. Thanks for being here. I'm always eager to hear from readers.
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What do you think people who unsubscribe seem to be saying? Maybe something like "Too cerebral, I thought you were going to Tony Roberts me"? I honestly have no idea what people expect when they sign up. If you're new, please tell me why you're here!
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In case you missed it, I write a lot about psychology, neurology, mental health and such things in this newsletter. I do so because like most intelligent people, I'm generally depressed and existential. Like 10% of adults, I suffer from anxiety. Maybe the idea that BPD is curable and the 1 in 5 of Generalized Anxiety Disorder are reasons I have the opinion that much of "mental illness" is entirely normal. Or maybe I just can't experience "normal".
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Maybe I'm assaulted
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"You have to believe in the worst to diminish its chances of coming to pass." Rebecca Solnit
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Over the last years it's certainly felt like intelligence, common sense, tolerance and kindness have been under assault. Stuff is flying around in all directions. Our species is so arrogant today, lots of people don't bother to listen, they just assume their perspective is the only one and rail at anyone who comes along with a different one. Complete with gaslighting and a rejection of fact. It's exhausting, really, and I'm struggling to figure out how to deal with idiocy coming at me from all over the place.
I am not sure why people don't seem to understand that things worth doing have already been done and reality is questionable at best.
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"The hole transforms from a hermit kingdom to a vigorously open system. Not only does information spill out, anything new that falls in is regurgitated almost immediately." George Musser
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Maybe I need help?
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I'd like to commission a portrait of myself with a pineapple, so if you're an artist, make me an offer.
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Also, if you don't eat and get cold, you might live longer. I'm not sure why you would want to do that, but I guess some people aren't as tired as I am all the time.
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