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Maybe I'm the same
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Hello and welcome to another year! I have big plans for 2022. Wait, no I don't. While everyone else is doing the "This year is going to be different" thing, reflecting and planning and generally feeling energetic for another year, I'm feeling somewhat grounded in the realisation that it's all going to be more of the same. Each day, I will get out of bed, no matter how unenthused I am about the day. Each day, I will eat food and move a bit. I will, each day, tell myself that today is a new day and by the end of it, sigh loudly and feel joy at the prospect of going back to sleep. Each day, I will commit to being content, and I'll find contentment in the little things.
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But I still don't find energy for the big. Not yet. Still. I don't know what the big is. My purpose. My passion. My motivation. I will just tinker forward in 2022, each day. And that should be good enough.
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Maybe I'm suspicious
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Coming back online is so weird. I received a forwarded email and replied with a friendly "hello, you're spreading misinformation. A simple Google search reveals loads of fact checks...". Then I received SIX more emails with links and arguments and accusations on my person. The first said "Are you kidding me? The great Laura Hillinger* relying on Google to fact check...". I didn't answer to say that actually I use DuckDuckGo as my search engine of choice. It was my fault for writing "simple Google search".
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*It's hard for me to take them seriously when people misspell my name
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Anyway, despite resisting the urge to open the can of worms (though, idk, this person might be reading this right now...), I did read some of the things. I did my own research too. I fell into the hole of the misinfo ferrets.
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Suspicious, isn't it, that so often it is white men who don't see how other white men providing platform for even more white men to disparage literally everyone who is not a white man is problematic? No, it's not about race or gender, we're talking about vaccines here. And the corporate control of the world and how "they" don't want you to know the truth. When you fall down the hole and make it to the bottom, it's typically white dudes who are complaining about something.
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The "inventor" of mRNA technology and his spreading of dangerous misinformation about vaccines? It isn't that mRNA advancements are dangerous at all, he's just a white dude who feels he didn't get enough credit (and money) for his contributions to the science. It's so utterly pathetic*. And that Joe Rogan guy apparently doesn't know how to stop talking about stuff he can't possibly understand (e.g. not being a white guy). Seriously, STFU.
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* And I have been this pathetic too. Earlier in my career, I thought it mattered. I was egotistical and got pissed off when someone else got credit for what started with me. But I grew the fuck up. I realised that we all build on the shoulders of others and there is no traceable origin of an idea. We collaborate. Your genius, and mine, is part of an intricate tapestry of inspiration and influence. Yeah, sometimes it still burns a little to be shut out. To see people profiting off your ideas, trust me, I know. But pettiness is normal.
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“He is, or has been, in many ways a great man. But for this very reason he is odd. It is only petty men who seem normal.” Umberto Eco, The Name of the Rose
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There was more that I could respond to, like the accusations that the entire NGO industry is manipulated and controlled by the billionaires and stuff, but I've caught a cold and am ready to be done with this episode of FBT.
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Maybe I need help?
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I quite enjoy reading conspiracy theorists and their views on the world. It's weirdly entertaining. What I just can't wrap my brain around is WHY, for the love of cats, do these folks believe in this scale of coordination?
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Happy 2022. LMK what's up with you.
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